I've found myself caught up in the numbers on this one and that's not my intention for it at all. This is different than logging reps of forms or even being deliberate about acts of gratitude or kindness. With those things it is good to say things like, "No matter what happens today I will do my form X times. I should just do it right now so I'm sure to get it done." I will post here to see this project through but I'm taking away how long it might take. It may be that I continue to reflect on the experience long after the year of practicing 1000 reps of stuff is over. I don't want to force myself to just say something two or three times a day about every little thing I'm doing. I thought this would be a log of thoughts-quotes-pictures- whatever came up (maybe still) but I'm thinking that can easily stray towards all that stuff I don't even really read anymore on FB...I'm eating now...It is YUMMY!...I'm eating again...My belly hurts )0: Ugggh. That's not my plan. I want this to be genuine if nothing else.
My resentment toward that part of me that doesn't finish things is so strong that it stops me from starting. Staying stuck in the planning of things is safer than the risk of it not going my way and needing to be OK with a new direction.
"Mountain and sea changing: Mountain and sea means that it is bad to do the same thing over and over again...when you try something on an opponent, if it does not work the first time, you will not get any benefit out of rushing to do it again. Change your tactics abruptly, do something completely different. If that still does not work, then try something else. Thus the science of martial arts involves the presence of mind to act as the sea when the enemy is like a mountain, and act as a mountain when the enemy is like a sea." MM The Book of 5 Rings
Today Mountain= Stick to the plan! Sea= It is OK to change some things as you go.
To overcome my resentment toward that part of me I will need to think about being more flexible with changes. In order to win I need to be unattached to a specific strategy. I will need to change from mountain or sea in order to suit the obstacle. And if that doesn't work, then I will try something else.
My resentment toward that part of me that doesn't finish things is so strong that it stops me from starting. Staying stuck in the planning of things is safer than the risk of it not going my way and needing to be OK with a new direction.
"Mountain and sea changing: Mountain and sea means that it is bad to do the same thing over and over again...when you try something on an opponent, if it does not work the first time, you will not get any benefit out of rushing to do it again. Change your tactics abruptly, do something completely different. If that still does not work, then try something else. Thus the science of martial arts involves the presence of mind to act as the sea when the enemy is like a mountain, and act as a mountain when the enemy is like a sea." MM The Book of 5 Rings
Today Mountain= Stick to the plan! Sea= It is OK to change some things as you go.
To overcome my resentment toward that part of me I will need to think about being more flexible with changes. In order to win I need to be unattached to a specific strategy. I will need to change from mountain or sea in order to suit the obstacle. And if that doesn't work, then I will try something else.
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